perlukah?

peluang pertama.
peluang kedua.
peluang ketiga.
peluang keempat.
dan sekarang sudah peluang kali ke berapa ntah.
perlukah lagi peluang-peluang itu?.. rasanya tak perlu.
sebab bila realiti mencelah,
tak ada lagi simpanan harapan yang mewujudkan peluang-peluang itu.
dan realiti seringkali saja mencelah hingga membuatkan semuanya tak berbaloi untuk diingati dan difikirkan...


"Reality bites... and doesn't let go." -Anonymous-

"There is a fine line between dreams and reality, it's up to you to draw it." -B. Quilliam-

vee day

As much as I don't want to celebrate v day, still there are people who send v day wishes to me. I replied it back tho. I don't really celebrate it due to some sayings that it's against what Islam taught .. but come to think of it sometimes, it depends on your intention or niat..

Well, as I said, I did reply friends wishes but it'll just stop there or I'd not be the one who started wishing everyone 'happy v day!'.

And well, it doesn't hurt to received a bouquet of roses.. doesn't it?.. *wink* :)

Thank you bintang! Lovely but lonely tho..


"If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with..." -Anonymous-

ayah

Ayah turned 59, four days ago (8th February). Like I said before, time flies so fast. Though the number might tell that that he's getting old, but to me, he's still young. :) Maybe because I don't wanna think that I've grown up.. cuz I still wanna be daddy's little girl. ;) I dont wanna think that he's getting older.. thots of it, make me cry.

There are still a lot of things that I wanted to learn and know from him. Back in Penang, Ayah and I would talk about a lot of things.. from life little problems to the ever chaotic local and abroad politics situation. Ayah likes to read a lot.. from books to articles on the net. And now, he also has his own blog! Thanks to me..hehehe.. ;) I taught him how to do it..

What I like about Ayah is the way he would stir conversation with his selamba joke.. especially when Mak is around. Mind you, Mak is a serious person, but she can laugh when Ayah came out with his humorous line..usually he'll make fun of himself in front of Mak which I think he sengaja did that so that Mak will react and tease him or even worse.. get angry with him. Well, that depends on Mak's mood. And then, they'll just start debating or fighting. And usually, Ayah will lose.. *sigh* I think Ayah loves it when Mak gets angry.. hehehe.. cuz he seems to sometimes repeat the same topic even when Mak dah tegur on what's wrong and what's right. ;)

Ayah can also be serious. ;) When we asked advice from him, he'll come out with his wisdom words. Contrary to Mak, he seldom get angry with us, unless we push his anger to the limit or we crossed some lines.. like Fuad always did. But Fuad doesn't care.. err..or do u Fuad? I can't hardly remember when was the last time Ayah get angry towards me. But when he does, I'll start shivering.. Cuz, I usually are more afraid of someone who at times get angry rather than someone who always nag about things all the time. Usually he'll tegur me cynically with a stern voice when I did something wrong..huhu..takuuut ;)

Well, overall, Ayah is a laid back person. 'Daddy cool' kinda person. ;) He always wants to be the defender for us when things get worse between me, my siblings and Mak. To quote him sometimes ago when Mak were mad at us over some things, "If Ayah treat us the same like Mak, where else will you/he/she go for comfort..?"..and that is why he'll be the one who we'll seek for in terms of fun, cash, credit cards, advice, etc etc .. hehehe..

.... but sometimes he 'betrayed' us, when he's not in the mood or when he felt that Mak did the right thing by scolding us on certain bad things we did.. *sigh*

As for this year's birthday, and for the first time ever, the four of us were not around to celebrate his birthday.. but I'll make it up by going back to Penang this Sunday! Hurray! Fuad will be around too this weekend. Perhaps we'll celebrate it by eating out.. and we did buy Ayah something.. ;)

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH! :) May Allah gives you the best of everything.. InsyaAllah..

about today

I don't know why I can't even write anything now..

Writer's block?.. I don't think so. This blog was supposed to have entries on beneficial things, but I can't put myself on finding something that'll benefit all human kind.. waaahhh! Big dreams there! hahahaha! Maybe because I was not born a writer but just trying hard to be a writer. Poor me..

About today, I'm off from work. Was out for lunch with my bintang today.. ;) Who n why do I call him 'bintang'? He's someone that I chose not to reveal. To quote him after I told him that we cannot be seen due to some circumstances, "Guess I'll have to be like stars - not always seen but always there." And that is why.

Lunch was ok for me but I'm not sure about him. I'm guessing he was ok.. well, he has to be okay cuz I chose the place. ;) He was kinda upset with me at first when we met just now. Me the girl who took an hour to get ready.. and so he waited. Well not that I intended to but someone woke me up the minute he wanted to go out. And how is that..? *confused* Well, I guess we had our own expectation for each other. I expected him to wake me up earlier n he expected me to have already woke up..

It's ok. The meeting went well although towards the end we were a little bit sappy n mushy. I know it's corny but that is when the reality hits us hard.

He send me home around half past four. In fact he send me earlier but we were chatting n 'enjoying' the scenery from on top of the world here at my place. ;)

I wanted to go watch movie and do some shopping but was feeling sluggish when I got to be on my bed after that.. *sigh* Next off day perhaps.. ;)

My movies wishlist at the mo':

1. Changeling
2. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
3. Confession of A Shopaholic

Really hope that I can make it to watch the above.

That's it for today...


"Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light cuz I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night." -Sarah Williams-