bleak

i'm having my down syndrome again.
hate it.
really need to get the tix fast!
but not sure when will be my off days...
hate it!!!
i wanna screaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmm!!!!

untitled

went to one of my relative wedding today at ttdi.
hmm..i hate going to weddings these days.. i think.
cuz people are starting to give me that sad and worrying look at me.
or is it just me?...
duhhh....

well i guess i have another reason to cry then...
besides the joy of marriage itself.
hmmmphh.... puas la hati diorang.

wedding bells are not ringing yet... so what.

song of dis few days

Like dis song.
Catchy n sesuai utk melalak di tempat tertentu..hehe.

Heaven Can Wait by We The Kings

here's a song for the nights
i think too much and
here's a song when i imagine us together
here's a song for when we talk too much
and i forget my words

heaven can wait up high in the sky
it's you and i
heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
i'm yours tonight
lay your heart next to mine
i feel so alive
tell me you want me to stay, forever
'cause heaven can wait

here's a song for the one who stole my heart
and ran so far, that cupid couldn't catch her
here's a song for the kid who aims so high
he shot her down

heaven can wait up high in the sky
it's you and i
heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
i'm yours tonight
lay your heart next to mine
i feel so alive
tell me you want me to stay forever
'cause heaven can wait

here's a song for the nights i drink too much
and spill my words

heaven can wait up high in the sky
it's you and i
heaven can wait deep down in your eyes
i'm yours tonight
lay your heart next to mine
i feel so alive
tell me you want me to stay,
forever cause heaven can wait

cause heaven can wait
cause heaven can wait

me maroon

oh maroon...
i didn't mean to leave you...
sigh.

this is quite funny.
every time i start talking about replacing you, you'll start to rebel by falling sick.
tiba2 ada saja yang tak kena.
sigh.
i didn't mean to leave yoooou...
but, sometimes life must go on.
even it is hard and not always a bed of roses....

homesicknessss

i'm homesick to the max!
i cld cry any minute now.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....................

lalalalalalalalalalaaaaaa......................

expecting the unexpected

i've been doing quite a few unexpected decisions lately.

be it regarding small small stuff like choosing what food i wanna eat or which clothes should i wear to work or some major decision in life like....buying your first car?
my mind, my heart and my hand doesn't seem to be synchronizing with each other.
my mind says A, my heart says B but my hands were doing something that are awkwardly different things altogether.
either i'm having my blurry moments again which i think everyday pun i macam tu but this time i think it's worst than my normal blurry moment.
or it's the time when reality hits me hard again and all of a sudden, decisions made earlier were abruptly changed.
and also that is when my brain starts to freeze and tangle up inside aka my brain is confused.
and my hands start to pick something in between.
and then i surprised my own self.
but after a while, surprisingly too, i managed to convinced myself that that's the right decision as for the moment if not the best.
thank god...
i hope it last tho.

russian roulette by rihanna

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

[Chorus]
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
And I’m terrified but I’m not leaving
Know that I must must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes
Sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he’s here means he’s never lost

As my life flashes before my eyes
I’m wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won’t get the chance to say goodbye
But it’s too late too pick up the value of my life

m.i.m.p.i

for the past few months, aku pun taktau kenapa most of my dreams were so vivid.
jelas sejelas2nya.
rasa macam realiti.
kadang2 sampai tak dapat nak bezakan antara mimpi atau realiti.
ini mimpi di malam hari.
bukan di siang hari tau.
pelik memikirkannya.

buat masa ini, nasib baik semua mimpi tu yang biasa2 saje..
belum ada yang ngeri, tapi yang misteri ada.
seram jugak kadang2.
yang menenangkan pun ada. terasa macam berada di satu tempat asing yang tak ada gangguan.
sampai sayu mengenangkannya.

adakah aku terlebih tido?
sekarang ni aku hanya merehatkan diri di malam hari.
siangnya, cuba menyibukkan diri dengan hal2 lain.
tapi kalau dah terasa mengantuk sangat, tertido jugak.
tapi tidak sekerap dulu lagi.
errk..harap2 begitulah.

seni ke?

dis is what i've been doing for the past weeks...
decoupage art.
d art of gunting and tampal and painting sket2...

stationaries tin container roses motif

panda series squarish plate or for wall deco

before and after panda series plate

close-up panda series plate 1

close-up panda series plate 2

close-up panda series plate 3

wall deco or papan alas fruity motif

jar roses motif

happy nu year 2010!

semoga lebih kuat,

lebih pasti,

lebih 'sesuatu',

lebih gembira,

lebih baik

dan lebih berjaya...

;-) insyaAllah.