expecting the unexpected

i've been doing quite a few unexpected decisions lately.

be it regarding small small stuff like choosing what food i wanna eat or which clothes should i wear to work or some major decision in life like....buying your first car?
my mind, my heart and my hand doesn't seem to be synchronizing with each other.
my mind says A, my heart says B but my hands were doing something that are awkwardly different things altogether.
either i'm having my blurry moments again which i think everyday pun i macam tu but this time i think it's worst than my normal blurry moment.
or it's the time when reality hits me hard again and all of a sudden, decisions made earlier were abruptly changed.
and also that is when my brain starts to freeze and tangle up inside aka my brain is confused.
and my hands start to pick something in between.
and then i surprised my own self.
but after a while, surprisingly too, i managed to convinced myself that that's the right decision as for the moment if not the best.
thank god...
i hope it last tho.