monologue me part 2: state of being unsure

i hate uncertainties.
things in my head are getting tense.
headaches.
i might be breaking down.
i might be on the verge of crying any minute at this phase.
or on any of these days, hours.
i feel betrayed.
i feel judged.
and i feel sad.
today, tomorrow or perhaps the day after tomorrow.
or maybe these feelings won't stop.
and so i hate uncertainties.
does that mean i hate this life??


"The beginning of wisdom is found in doubting; by doubting we come to the question, and by seeking we may come upon the truth"~Pierre Abelard

"To be uncertain is to be uncomfortable, but to be certain is to be ridiculous"~Chinese Proverb